I had two early miscarriages in 2008 after trying for a baby for over a year. One was in May and one in September at around seven weeks. I was under the care of fertility doctors, as I had also been diagnosed with polycystic ovaries. I had been on fertility drugs during the time I had the miscarriages, and continued to take them afterwards to aid my fertility.
Unfortunately, one year later and I had had no further pregnancies. I know it is an awful thing to say, but I was desperate to get pregnant again so I would lose the baby and then I could get referred for more tests but was also terrified of being pregnant again in case I lost it, if that makes any sense?
The doctors I saw in the early pregnancy unit, when they told me I had miscarried, said they could not refer me for further tests until I had had three consecutive miscarriages. They explained that the miscarriages I had were 'just one of those things', and that I had just as much chance of having a normal pregnancy afterwards as anybody else.
This made me feel very frustrated, as my husband and I felt so alone and helpless. Friends and family around us were getting pregnant easily and were having healthy babies, but we seemed unable to. Only very close family knew of our predicament, and I was very glad we had not told anyone else of the pregnancies as telling my Mum and Dad I had lost them was one of the hardest things I have had to do.
When I saw my fertility doctor, he arranged for me to have some blood tests and also booked me in for ovarian drilling to boost my fertility. The first blood test results came back saying I might have APS, but the test needed to be repeated in six weeks. I had the ovarian drilling operation in October 2009 and in November 2009 was diagnosed with APS following the second positive blood test.
I found out I was pregnant in December 2009, and immediately started on daily heparin injections, HCG injections (twice a week), taking baby aspirin daily and had to wear thigh high compression stockings (these were great over the winter but not during the summer!).
I think I spent the first four months in a complete panic that I would lose the baby. Even after the scans when they could show me the baby's strong heartbeat and told me all was progressing well, I was waiting for it to all go wrong. I used to be terrified to go for the scan: I thought they would say "I am sorry Mrs Jackson, there is no heartbeat" like they did when I had the scan after I miscarried. Our close family did not want to get too excited, no-one dared. We decided not to find out whether we were having a boy or a girl, that way we would not get too attached if something went wrong.
The doctors told me that although I was over the worst part of the pregnancy (the first three months) that I 'was not out of the woods yet' as there was a risk of me developing a blood clot and the baby's growth could be affected. The pregnancy was monitored closely and I was scanned every four weeks. Once I hit four months we decided to tell everyone, if they had not already guessed as I was starting to show. I had no problems at all during the pregnancy my blood pressure was very stable.
It was a huge relief to everyone when Hayden, was born on Friday 13th of August 2010 (a lucky day for us!). I continued with the heparin injections and wearing of the compression stockings for six weeks after his birth. I am now on no medication whatsoever and loving every minute of motherhood. It took us a long time to get our son, but he was so worth the wait.
We also added to our family last year, when our healthy baby girl, Cerys, was born on 3rd April 2013. As soon as I found out I was pregnant, I started the heparin injections again. The pregnancy went really well, although she decided to put in an earlier appearance and arrived five weeks early. Apart from a six day stay in hospital, mainly because Cerys needed phototherapy treatment for jaundice, she was very healthy.
Our family is now complete thanks to the daily heparin injections.